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In many ways, this week has flown by. The boost in confidence that came my way towards the end of last week helped me throw some of my self-criticism aside enough to just be a little happier this week. (Thankful #1) This is not to say that The Bitch didn’t make an appearance — she did; she always does. . . BUT, it is to say that I was able to put her in the background instead of at the forefront, which is good. Hopefully, I can keep this up & it’ll be smooth sailing for a bit. . .
As I alluded to in last week’s Ten Things of Thankful post, I did actually follow through & post a bit of fiction for this week’s Two Shoes Tuesday prompt. (Thankful #2) The prompts were “under” or “umbrella” & I chose the former; the post is aptly named, simply, “Under.” & I had a lot of fun writing it! The final product is far from polished, in my opinion, but it was a big deal for me to hit that “Publish” button, so yeah… Plus, I had a completely different ending in mind for it, so, perhaps some of those unused ideas will be extra motivation to make that sort of thing more regular in the coming days or weeks. We shall see.
It is no secret, for the few that frequent my little cyber corner here, that I particularly enjoy the community & inspiration lent by a good blog hop. SO, I was especially thrilled to see this week’s return of one called “Six Sentence Stories.” It was hosted by Josie of Two Shoes in Texas (the same host as Two Shoes Tuesday, which I thoroughly enjoy), but was discontinued, over a year ago, from the looks of things. I caught wind that it was being “reborn” over at Uncharted & that was all the motivation I needed — especially after the boost in confidence from last week. SO, I was thrilled to be able to submit something for that blog hop too! (Thankful #3)
In the past, at some point, I know I mentioned that there are some things from last year that I was just not looking forward to being brought to light again this year. I am a Facebook junkie — which is fine, I think, because it is a good way to stay connected to others right now. There is an app called “On This Day” that shows my posts in past years on this same date. Well, Thursday was the day that the post telling everyone about our miscarriage finally made its way in front of me. I am glad that day has come & gone, because it is just another way to be able to move forward. . . (Thankful #4)
Hopefully that in-your-face reminder won’t be back around again for another year — & maybe there will be more good memories to help drown that one at least a little. With all of that said, of course it still hurts, but it is not quite as raw now. I am starting to be able to look at it as a little more matter-of-fact, rather than having to conjure up all those negative emotions every time it comes to mind. . . We have some optimism things will work out the way they are supposed to — we have fear & pain too, but optimism is my focus right now. (Thankful #5)
Also on Thursday, I was reminded of the day I severely sprained my ankle (on that day three years ago). It was Memorial Day, I believe. I took a step down & missed it, bent my foot backwards & landed on top of it. Horrific pain! I was a smoker back then & was going outside for a cigarette. . . I knew I wouldn’t be able to “get my fix” once I stood up & realized how horrible the damage really was, so I sat there, lit my cigarette, & enjoyed it the best I could. The handsome husband (who was my “handsome man” back then since we weren’t yet married or even thinking about it) knew immediately the injury would require an emergency room visit, but I insisted otherwise. I waited two hours before popping a pill for the pain & another four or so tear-filled, sleepless hours before finally giving in & asking him to take me to the hospital. It was early morning by then.
I was in so much pain & had waited so long, I could not walk on it any more. He gave me the most adorable look right before saying something like, “Remember, I used to be a firefighter.” Without giving me a chance to respond, he just scooped me up & threw me over his shoulder & man-handled me over to the car. Haha. (I think I still had him take me to breakfast first. Ugh. I hate hospitals!) I definitely fell in love with him a little more that day (Thankful #6) & the several days after — you can’t exactly drive when your left foot/ankle is injured & you drive a 5-speed, ya know? Huh. Not a great thing to happen, but there will still good memories out of it, I guess, huh? 😉
So, on a completely separate note, I popped onto my student center website to verify my registration for classes in the fall, (which I did a couple of months ago, I thought). As it turns out, somehow, during one of my swaps, I mistakenly dropped on the math classes I need for my intended path. Whoops! I am glad I had the urge to check it out! (Thankful #7) It would have royally sucked to have missed taking that class if it filled up. . . All of those types of classes are prerequisites for the next, so it would’ve put me in the position to either be a semester behind or to have to re-evaluate my plan. As it stands, my fall semester will be grueling: an introductory physics, fundamentals of accounting (which I anticipate to be just fine), brief calculus, introductory astronomy, and plane trigonometry. We will see what happens as the beginning of the semester draws closer, but that is the plan for now! I am excited for it.
This coming Wednesday marks four weeks until we get to leave for our visit back to Washington State. (Thankful #8) The handsome husband & I so flippin’ stoked! We miss everyone up there so incredibly much — & I miss the moisture in the air & the greenery & the fact that I don’t feel like I am going to melt away as soon as I leave my air-conditioned house. It is going to be a whirl-wind trip & we are going to be hard-pressed to fit in time with everyone we want to see — & much less, get enough time with everyone we want to see — BUT a speed-visit is better than no visit & we are so grateful to get to head up there. The handsome husband is taking a 12-day stretch off work to do it & we are renting a car & driving up so we can take Muttley with us.
When the time comes to head home from Washington, we will “kidnap” Little RJ & he’ll come spend a month or so with us to finish off the summer. (Thankful #9) Haha. Okay. We’re not kidnapping him, of course! We’ve been planning this for a while with his dad. . . But, when Little RJ was younger, I would say, “I’m going to steal you to go [fill-in-the-blank]” & he thought it was extra exciting, so, yeah. We are taking an extra day or so driving home than traveling to Washington so that we can try to plan a couple extra “fun” stops since we’ll have the kid in tow, so we’ll see how that goes.
The handsome husband has always been extra careful and attentive towards the boys. He gets that they are a huge part of my world & he knew from the start that we were a packaged deal (even if our “package” is a little different from the “norm”), of course. With that said, I have to say, over the past year or so, I can really see the relationship between the handsome husband & Little RJ start to evolve. There is less uncertainty between the two of them… Little RJ is getting to know the differences between his father & his step-father & the handsome husband is getting his groove in regard to setting his own boundaries & rules in our house, while learning to let some of the smaller things “slide” (or, at least go slightly easier on the consequences of them, anyway 😉 ). They play games on Xbox Live together & talk when I am not even involved — & it has even gotten to the point where the handsome husband is just as (or, frankly, perhaps, MORE SO) excited for Little RJ to come to visit again. They seem to really be enjoying each other’s company & the strain I once saw is so minute now. (Thankful #10) Blended families aren’t supposed to be a walk in the park all the time. I get that. (Boy, do I get that!) But, I am so incredibly proud the handsome husband & Little RJ’s dad & all of us involved for becoming one huge family where Little RJ is concerned. I am so incredibly grateful that Little RJ doesn’t have to know what it is like for all of the parents in his life to be at each other’s throats. . . We might not see eye-to-eye on every single thing, but we remain respectful & we even remain friends & that is not something to take for granted at all.
What are YOU thankful for this week? List your ten things in the comments or let me know on Facebook. If you have a place to link-up, head over to this week’s Ten Things of Thankful to link-up — & if you don’t, go read through what other people are thankful for anyway; you’d be surprised how uplifting it can be. 😉